Holiday Doodles

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Christmas + Bali

Yea, so, Christmas went by, without being all christmas-y at all, somehow.
I dunno why, all my other Christmases went, uh, well, christmas-y. While now, even when I'm with most of my extended family, Christmas felt like nothing. Almost nothing at all. We didn't celebrate it, pretty much. We just went to the church and stuff. That's it. Like, maybe Christmas is gone for us. or like, for me. To be honest, sometimes I just don't feel the family bond in my family. Like, the last part of my family that I still hold bonds with, kinda broke it 2 weeks ago. It's sucky and all, but, maybe it's better this way? I mean, I don't exactly fit into my family. I mean I do in a normal level, but not enough to make me really a part of the family. Some people from my family sometimes even forget me! Not as in forget who I am but like, forget that I'm there.
Meh, I dunno, things are quite fucked up lately.

But on the other hand, Bali has been nice. I went to 2 beaches so far which are Sindhu and Nusa Dua. The waves in Nusa Dua were aaaweesome! My cuz taught me how to body surf and I kinda used it for some specific advantages *chling*
Like, somehow I really feel like living when I'm on the beach. Like, it's where I'm supposed to be. I used to do these little dumb quizzes in facebook back in the past, where they tell you what element you belong in based on your answers, and it always came with water. And apparently I do feel well living with water around.
Oh and I bought naisu clothing and sandals and keychain and most importantly, a Balinese traditional headwear-thingy, which is an Udeng, And it is awezum.

On the downside, I haven't been able to use my laptop a lot, so I haven't gone anywhere with my supposed-to-be-finished-this-year drawings. oh man @@

oh well
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

"Curhat", Raves+Rants

XD eh well, in Indonesia, "Curhat" is short for "Curahan Hati". It's literally translated as "Pouring of the heart" or "Venting of the heart". It's basically when someone rants or raves, or basically vents about the things that happen in their life. It's most commonly used when someone is talking about love and relationships.


As for me here, being a guy that trusts the internet, I do prefer to do my 'curhat' here in my blog, or my facebook, and sometimes in FA or DA. 


So uh well, life's been mm... good, pretty much. Here I am back in Solo, Indonesia, safely. My cousins from Australia are here too, and we're having a good time. Apparently my 2 younger cousins kinda forgot how to speak Indonesian x'D It's not hard for me to talk to them, but to some of my other relatives, it's kinda hard, especially my other cousins ehehe
My older cousin bought me a veeery nice gift from Australia, which is an Ouroboros symbol(From Fullmetal Alchemist) necklace. I've been wearing it since I got it X'D
Oh, and I actually have plans to go to BALI around the end of this year. oh what fun X3c;;; I'm really looking forward to it. I'll take pics, of course :'D

Going backwards, leaving Malaysia was kinda hard for me, somehow harder than leaving Indonesia 3 months ago. I actually felt what it was like to, you know, live. Living alone in my own room, spending time with friends, facing the same problems, choosing where I want to go when I want to go, choosing which people I wanna be friends with and which ones I wanna avoid. Life as a college student is extremely different than what I've been experiencing before, and I liked it. Leaving campus was hard, coz I left my friends there, the ones that I made by my own choice. And well, worst of all, actually, is leaving the person that I like. as in, "like" like.
I know it's stupid x'D being sad because of a crush. But well, crushes really do crush your heart. Being rejected, or knowing you'll be rejected really breaks your heart. Oh well, at least I still have activities back at home, since most of my extended family is here. I'll live through the 1 month vacation.


Going backwards again, 2 days before my departure back to Indonesia, I actually had a small pre-Christmas party with my church friends. It was actually, well, something different than just any other party. It kinda felt like we're family. We cooked together, we ate together, and we actually had a roasted turkey. It was my first time eating turkey and it's heeaavenly *w*. 
The best part of the party, actually, was having an opportunity to spend some time with the person that I liked(yeah I know this sounds stupid). To be honest, I know that my crush would probably reject me, if I were to ever confess. There's like, only 10 percent chance that I'll be accepted. So like, for now I'll just be satisfied by being friends.


Haha, boring wall of text? This is what's called 'curhat' :P
I guess for the reader or listener, a curhat is something really boring and annoying, but for the speaker/writer, it's actually a good thing, you get to pour your heart out and like, feel relieved. It's healthy, in my opinion


Well see ya later, needa go to bed @@

College doodles @A@

Yes, college doodles. I'll just dump em here @@

Islander outfit <3

Really proud of this one x3

I wonder if that weapon can really be effective...

I don't rly like this one but meeh

Looks like Argon's first pic somehow

Inspired by Yuna from FFX-2(specifically) and Rinoa from FFVIII

Mummy cat nyahaha~

*sparkly eyes*

I have no idea...

Wasn't on a good mood when doing this one @@

Faiz~

You can tell that I was in a restaurant when doing this one xD

Randudum

Argon!

Well that would be all @@a
I do have like a few more drawings but they're crappy, so hahahaheu


Have a nice day, keep drawing, if you do draw, that is @@

Artdump

Have been busy with college, mmyeah
How long have it been since I posted anything here? @@ 
Doesn't matter, have s- I mean at least I'm still posting '3'

Here are some unpublished doodles that I've done during free times

This be Argon, being awesome and all.extra large kitchen knives ftw

My friend calls this 'a waste of paper'true, actually @@

I actually published this in FA but meeehh

Quick face doodle. He looks like a Korean, dontcha think?

I have more drawings actually, most were done in class, on paper*NOOOOOOOOO*
Yep, I'm gonna wait till I'm back home to scan it. Ima post it as soon as I can. 


College life has been ok @@a pretty much. Though there are waay too many distractions around *spins*


well cya in the next post @@a

I'm sure a lot of people went through this

Before I talk about anything, have this thingy :U
 

Happens to me Every single time

Now to the serious stuff. I've actually been feeling very.. what's the word.. Hopeless about my art. It's been quite a while since I joined art sites like DA and FA, but I don't feel like I'm recognized by people.
I don't get much friends either. Most of the friends I have now would be the Furries from my country which joined a group that I manage in FB. It's kinda depressing really.

I mean the point of me joining those sites is to get recognized by people, and know some new faces. Coz, well, nobody here recognizes my art skills. I know it's not much yet, but it's something already, right?

I'm even thinking of giving up art. It's been more than a year since I've joined FA and I've only gotten 2900 views so far. Maybe it's quite something... but... Views are just, views, lol. and I don't even know how it works, like is it counting how many people seen my page or how many people opened my page or something... It's actually comments that I need. It seems like only a few people care to say something about my art. Like it's just 'oh it's art *opens another*'. 
I know I'm being egoistic about this. But I just.. wanna make people know that I'm not just another artist.. that I'm special in some ways.

Meh, though if I did abandon my art, I still have a few other ways anyway. I'm good at cooking, I have a strong feeling for music, I excel in science-related stuff, I'm good with psychology.. not to brag, it's just true.. really. 

I'll just consider it I guess... Maybe not taking art subject in college isn't so wrong after all..

Doodles : Kreecher Series 1

Er, I've had so little ideas for my drawings lately, though I did these as practice.I Call them 'Kreechers'. no not the Harry Potter Kreacher, it's Kreecher.

They're basically human figure drawings with no facial identity and just slight not-human-ness. I'll be posting more when I draw more of them... I guess

The first Kreecher. Started out as a simple random sketch and decided to define the body shape

 

I actually started with the dagger and the body just popped out of nowhere

 

The most beautiful kreecher so far, well she's the only girl for now

Green Goblin Kreecher LOL
His mask, I love more than others <3

 

I love his weapons the most <3

If you might be noticing, I've actually used those kinds of markings they have on their masks on other drawings and characters. I will simply love you for knowing where else I've used them on :'D~

Rest time for me, I'm feelin not so good, kinda tired and stuff. Hope I'll get better soon .3.