Teenagers

Avoid this pic if u don't wanna read amateur psychological observations

 

Yeah, teenagers.

One second they're like 'RAGE! THIS SUCKS, THAT SUCKS, LIFE SUCKS IMMA HIT PEOPLE' and 5 minutes later they're like 'OMG I'M SO HAPPY! LIFE IS WONDERFUL IMMA GIVE GIFTS TO PEOPLE'

Aren't we?

Yeah, actually XD
Till now I'm still wondering how it works that way, I mean, How does our mind take such little things and turn it into huge things that makes us so worked up and upset. For me, I'm trying as hard as I can to be mature, but it doesn't go that easily, apparently. The small things like connection problems and being asked for help when I don't wanna help gets me fired up, and I feel like wrecking the place.

Phew, It's probably in the hormones, and we can't do much about it.
I just hope when I get older I don't keep this teenage mood swing with me DX 

I'm definitely not bragging

Basically, I'm too smart to be stupid.
Again, NO, I'm NOT bragging. I'm more like ranting.
See, I've seen a lot of people being able to do irresponsible and stupid things when they're angry.  While me? No, Every time I get angry and wanna do something, my mind just HAD to think of the consequences, making me NOT able to do it, STRESSING my INSIDES...
Something like this. I think of throwing the router to the floor when my connection go crazy(crazy here means either going as slow as 5 KB/s or going on and off every few seconds, which just happened). THEN, my mind just HAD to think of what will happen next. The router gets broken, I can't connect to the internet, bla bla bla, whatever.
Another thing, My laptop goes really slow of no reason, I get angry and think of slamming it with my hands. THEN my mind thinks of what happens next. It gets broken, I can't use it anymore, bla bla bla, etc.
Other things even, like I wanna kick the table. Then I think of the noise it will cause, and my parents will worry about me, and they will ask stuff, bla bla bla.
I wanna kick my dog. then I think of how she will feel, hurt, unloved, and I will look like an abuser, bla bla bla.

You know, ALL of these things make me a 'GOOD BOY' in people's eyes. Doesn't get angry, doesn't break stuff, can manage anger well, bla bla bla. But you know what I see? a 'PRESSURED, DEPRESSED, TIME BOMB'. Yeah, that's right. Someday in the future I might just explode. I dunno what it will be like, but I know it won't be pretty. It might just change me 180 degrees. Who knows, when I'm 18 I might be something like a thug, robbing people or something.

And just now a cockroach appeared, and I didn't have anything to get rid of it. I had to go get a bugspray and spray below my desk.
I sprayed a whole lot more than I needed to.

You know what? If this bugspray poisoned me tonight, I'd be glad. Heck, let it kill me before I explode. The world is better with one less time bomb.

Nuff said. 
 
 

*snort*

 

I am sick o_o
 

 Lol well I guess I'm not that high in temperature XD but I felt horrible this afternoon
Anywho I took my medicine and I think I feel kinda better. Gonna have dinner and drink juice 8D

Hm about today, earlier I got a physics practical test, which wasn't so hard XD There were 4 experiments. About force, light, electricity, and temperature. It went pretty well and I got a thumb up from my teacher for finishing quickly 8D *happy*

 

Preeettyy~ 

Right after the experiment I went home and took a nap, and I felt horrible coz of my sickness o_o And I keep on dreaming about the experiments XDa I dunno why. I guess it was the only thing I could think of and it stayed in my mind.

I wonder how I can get well quickly...
Oh right! people say happiness is a cure for anything, right? 8D
Then *plays a lot of games for 5 hours*
...
*gets sent to the hospital*
 Lol JK

Well see ya guys in the next post owo/  

Fursona :D

Mm basically today marks the day when I change my fursona XD
If you dunno what a fursona is, it's basically an anthropomorph character, usually with fur(there are also scalesonas and feathersonas), which represents us, like a persona :3
I'll just show you the current 3 stages of my fursona development  

This would be my first design, originally created at March 2010 

Just a generic gray wolf... Extremely common and unoriginal, really OTZL

And this is pretty much my second design. I didn't have a decent pic so have this animation instead XD
This was my icon for winter (which we don't have here OTZL) Which I'm pretty much proud of.

 The modifications are just the hair, the blue marking on my ear that extends to the right part of my neck, blue stripes on my tail and right foot, and claw-like marks on my shoulders, which are actually stretch marks on my skin which I rly have irl XD

I created the design October 2010 

And this would be my newest design of my Fursona. A blue red panda :D (such a contradiction XD) Anywho, there are major differences between this and my old design. First of all, the change of species means I change everything.

So, I have basic red panda markings, turned blue. The hair, blue ear, and claw markings stay, but the others change. And look! I have black limbs :D how awesome XD 

Heh I guess that's all. I've been through a lot of originality dilemmas with my fursona. I never thought it was unique enough, but now I think it is :D and I'm so happy XD